I think they are getting closer to a diagnosis. While the latest blood test results don’t account for all of my symptoms, it might account for my fatigue. That’s good news… I guess. The downside is the only then I can do is take it easy and wait things out.
Yesterday I just rested. This morning I mowed the back lawn. It’s about lunch time and I feel relieved that they are making progress.
Permanent vs Temporary
Until they know, it’s hard to say why things are the way they are. They could be permanent or temporary. We always want things to be temporary when it comes to health problems, but it is a fact of life that many people have to deal with illness and disabilities that simply won’t go away or get better. The best to hope in those cases is they won’t get worse.
Right now, the hope is this fatigue thing is temporary and once my system gets rid of the virus causing it, I won’t be so tired all the time. That’s the hope, at least.
Life Goes On
Life goes on, with or without you. The problem is, if you can’t take care of your responsibilities, who will?
Someone pulled me aside a couple of Sunday’s ago and out of the blue said, “You reach a point in life where you have to realize you’re around so others will have someone to serve.”
That’s a hard pill to swallow. It’s even harder if you’ve prided yourself your whole life of being able to take care of yourself and your family.
Who am I to disagree with God? Who am I to think I know better?
As a Christian I am taught the first and great commandment is to love God with all my heart, might, mind and strength. The second commandment is like it — to love my neighbor as myself. All the commandments are based upon these two commandments, including the 10 commandments.
The first three commandments (of the 10) have to do with loving God, and the 4th is a commandment to worship him on the Sabbath day, and to take one day off a week to rest from our labors and to allow others to rest.
The 5th commandment is to live in such a way that you do not bring disgrace to your parents.
The 6th deals with taking life – no murdering, no abortion.
The 7th deals with sexual relationships. Anciently, it meant no sexual relationships outside of marriage between a man and a woman. Latter-day prophets uphold this definition. Sex is to only be between a man and a woman who have been legally married.
The 8th deals with taking what does not belong to you.
The 9th deals with lying.
The 10th deals with wanting something you cannot have or that doesn’t belong to you.
None of that has ever changed, or ever will change. So, when someone says I need “help to overcome” my religious beliefs, it isn’t going to happen.
A couple of scriptures came to mind while I was listening to the Priesthood Lesson today. The first scripture was…
Adam fell that men might be; and men are, that they might have joy. (2 Nephi 2:25)
We’ve been placed here to have joy. Notice, it doesn’t say “fun” but “joy.” The difference is fun is entertainment, and momentary. Joy is a state of mind that is eternal and lasting.
The second scripture was…
So God created man in his own image, in the image of God created he him; male and female created he them. And God blessed them, and God said unto them, Be fruitful, and multiply, and replenish the earth… (Gen. 1:27 & 28)
This made me think that the most joy in life comes through procreation, raising those children, seeing grandchildren born to your offspring, and if we live long enough, seeing great grandchildren born and raised. Everything else is temporary and simply entertainment, not joy.
We watched this video, and it says it all about joy…
Finally, as a Christian, the Apostle Paul said it best in I Cor. 11:11…
Nevertheless neither is the man without the woman, neither the woman without the man, in the Lord.
I was taught the purpose of this life was to come here to earth (yes, I believe we lived, with God, our Heavenly Father, before we were born.) Our purpose was to come and gain a body, keep God’s commandments, and to live by faith. With that purpose, comes the charge to find a mate, marry, and raise children. That sex is reserved as a two-fold purpose between a man and a woman who have married. That purpose is to strengthen the man-woman bond in matrimony, and to become partners with God in creating life. It is then our duty to teach those children, love and nurture them so that they can grow and repeat this process. Thus, finding joy in our posterity.
I was taught that any other use of those procreative powers is a sin only surpassed by the taking of innocent blood. That the misuse of those powers brings misery, unhappiness, and that it ruins relationships and destroys families.
I will continue to treat others with kindness even if they live differently, but please, don’t ask me to deny the teachings I’ve been taught since childhood. While you may choose to deny the existence of a God, I know the God whom I worship and I am trying to live by his laws.