Pageant 2018 Shift
I fulfilled my Pageant 2018 Shift today. It was a depressing feeling to not feel my happy self. I usually enjoy working Pageant security, but with this illness it was everything I could do to endure the 4 hours.
When I got home Elizabethe gave me the painful reminder that I may have to stop volunteering for stuff like this.
I fear how I’m going to handle next week’s photography school.
Since mowing the lawn Monday I have been very sick. They are doing 6 more blood tests this week. While some of them will have severe consequences if they turn out positive, at this point, knowing is better than not knowing.
The gal who drew my blood says her mom has been tested on and off for the last 4 years. That must be heartbreaking to know you’re sick, but have the doctors stymied as to why. She was telling me people were telling her it is all in her head. (How cruel.)
I have this to say about it being “all in one’s head”…
My own experience is this: If it were all in my head, I’d be riding my bicycle 25-40 miles a day, and taking 50 mile trips often. I’d have the outside of my house painted by now, and I would have done it all by myself. And, the list would go on.
Nobody wishes these symptoms upon themselves. Nobody.